I really do.
It’s been over a month since I last posted anything here so I figured I should at least write a quick something to say I’m still alive and well and there is no need to worry. Then again if you follow me on Twitter you’ll already know all that.
Anyways as the title suggests I’ve come to realize that I really do miss blogging and despite my “best efforts”, I can’t seem to get back into it. I mean I am trying…. okay mostly (not really), but the fact that I have it on my mind and I’m making an effort to sit down and write this is a start in the right direction. I was talking with a friend on Twitter the other day and he suggested writing 1000 words a day is a good way to get yourself back into writing. It’s not a bad idea really and it’s a pretty reachable goal too. I’ve written 1k word reviews before and it’s not too hard as once you get started it goes by in a flash. Granted you’ve already got a set topic on which you’ll be writing about, but even so you can reach 1k words in a very short amount of time. But I’m not writing reviews right now nor is this an anime blog, despite the content you may see here. For a personal blog like this it’s a bit harder to spit out 1k words as you don’t always have a set topic in mind as to what you want to write about. For this post, I just mainly want to give a quick update, as seemingly many of my posts do after going a long time between posts, but also because I have a few things I want to talk about too.
Like I mentioned at the outset of this post, I miss blogging. I’ve noticed over the past while that it’s been harder and harder for me to really sit down and write like I used to. It’s not that I don’t like writing anymore, I still love it, but my lack of motivation is reaching all time lows with seemingly no hope of it returning anytime soon. It sucks because I’ve got this new idea that’s been floating around in my head for the past couple months for a new story to write, this one being a superhero-ish story about vigilante on a quest for revenge after someone close to him is murdered. I’ve been bouncing the idea around thinking up different things I’d like to explore in this story, but as of yet it’s just a nice idea in my head and hasn’t progressed from that state. I want to write it because I think it’s a good idea, just needing some fleshing out and such but like all my “good ideas” they don’t seem to ever last that long. I’ve still got a few other projects that are currently stalled, but I have been looking at that from time to time so it’s not that I’ve entirely given up on them. But while this is great at all, it’s got nothing to do with blogging or this blog. I’m writing this to talk about why I miss blogging, not to share story ideas.
You know, back in December I said I wanted to bring this blog back to life and get back into a habit of posting here more regularly. Well so far that hasn’t happened and while I could blame it on work, or being tired from work, or other things I’ve got going on in my life, really what it comes down to is me and my lack of scheduling. I’ve got things going on right now in my life and it’s easy to let something like blogging get pushed to the background as it’s not super important, but really I do have free time, some weeks more than others, and it’s just how I arrange my day, or better yet don’t arrange my day, that is only adding to this mess. We’ve all got 24 hours in a day and I seem to waste most of them on my days off. Reading and writing are two things I talked a lot about doing but haven’t fully committed to doing that despite listing them as my New Year goals. Now here we are in March (oh how time flies) and I haven’t don’t shit yet on either of those goals of mine.
It frustrates me as I know I can do this if I just schedule my days properly and get things done, but I seem to have such a hard time doing that. And what’s worse is that the longer I keep putting this off the harder it is to really get back into the mindset of writing or wanting to write, so it’s just like some never-ending cycle that’s pushing me farther and farther away from doing something that I used to really love. I know every post I try to act all confident and say how I’ll get back into writing for real this time, but honestly it hasn’t happened at all nor does it look like it’s going to happen if I keep this up. I want to change and get back into writing. I really do and I can’t keep looking for excuses to use when the problem is something right in front of me the whole time.
This blog isn’t something I plan on giving up on. I’ll keep it going as long as I can and I’ll try to get something posting as frequently as I can too. I’ve been at this for a few years now and you’d think I’d be much better at this, but maybe after all that time I’m still far from where I really want to be. I want to think this is just a rough patch I’m going through and once I get out, which I will I just don’t know when, I’ll return to blogging and writing too with my motivation high and that passion burning once again. But as much as I wish it were something that could happen overnight, I’ve got to work hard at it and really discipline myself when it comes to setting a schedule and sticking to it. Like I said above the idea to write 1000 words a day isn’t impossible, hell, I’ve done it with this post already. Not that I expect to pump out 1k word posts a day, but it’s a goal I think I’d like to try working towards. It’s attainable and I know I’m capable of doing that. If NaNo taught me anything, it’s how to write a lot in month, and while I wish I could keep that kind of pace up, this goal of 1k a day is moderately close to that.
So, in conclusion, blogging is something I really do miss and while posts are few and far in between on this blog, I’ve never stopped thinking about it and wanting to get back into that mindset of writing on a more daily basis. I can’t say when the next post will be up, but I do want it to be sooner than a month from now.
So that’s pretty much all for this post. Call it an update post, call it a rant, call it whatever the hell you want but it’s just something I felt like putting down and posting on my blog here. It honestly amazes me that 200+ people follow this blog. Hell, I doubt a quarter of them are even active but to whoever sees this on their reader and reads it all, thanks.
And in the spirit of this not being an anime blog, starting in April over on Anime Corps I’ll be writing weekly reviews for Saekano S2, a show I’m eagerly looking forward to watching. And speaking of second seasons, Love Live! Sunshine!! will be returning this fall for a second season! I’m extremely excited for it and in the coming months when more info is released I might do a post about my thoughts and expectations for this highly-anticipated show. And lastly April 1st is also the 3rd anniversary for Anime Corps and I think this year I’ll take a page out of Tsuyuki’s post and do a Q&A. But more on that later.
Oh, and lastly if you for some reason missed my previous post, I’m now on Instagram so you can follow me over there if you’re also on Instagram.
So that’s pretty much all for this post, I can’t think of anything else I wanted to include but if I suddenly remember something then I’ll save it for another post. As always if you’ve made it to the bottom then I thank you very much for sticking with this long rambling post. I know it’s hard to get through but that’s just how it is these days, sorry about it.
Alright then, that’s all from me.
Take care guys!
P.S. I also turned 23 on February 19th. My back hurts, I complain more, and I’m drinking more. I’m officially getting old.